Need to:
Read Chapter 9
Read Chapter 8
Read Chapter 5
Review class notes
Memorize all of that shit
Fact Checking - Tomorrow 5:00pm
Need to:
Highlight all the facts
Check them
E-mail article back to editors
Monologue - Tomorrow 6:30pm
Need to:
Memorize monologue
Make it "me" or whatever the hell I'm supposed to with it.
Math Test - Tuesday 9:30am
Need to:
Go over notes
Go over review problems
Feature Article on Two Ton Weight - Tuesday 11:00am
Need to:
Go through notes and get important stuff
Write it
Possibly get more quotes
Edit it
Creative Writing - Tuesday 3:30pm
Read stories
Do Critiques
Print them
Portfolio
* Write an entire short story (crap)
* Print out all the critiques from this semester
* Do the critique that you forgot to do and put it on black board AND print
* Print out Novel Outline
* Edit Stories
* Print stories
then theres the math final monday
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Edit 12:14am
okay 1. I am NOT sleeping, crap.
2. I realized what my problem is, it's not lack of concentration, its more like lack of motivation, or further in that, my mind just wanders. now I know, that sounds like the same thing as lack of concentration but its not. For instance I am concentrating on this, and i sure as hell concentrate on my drawings, its just that, I have all these interests and my passion directs me. Of course that sounds like a good thing, especially to an artist (and I know that everyone who reads my blog is an artist to some degree, and you can be an artist even if you dont make art, its a way of looking at life, but thats a whole 'nother blog entry) but it can be bad, because it is getting in the way of my school work.
but like... how bad is that? I made a blog like this a bit ago about what really does matter? Like for instance I'm reading my awful textbook (really i hate it sooo much) and i came across this sentance, "He points out that magazine design matured quickjly, with a short adolescence of les than 50 years..." which i thought was odd / cool since I've never seen adolescence used like that before, so I looked it up..
–noun
| 1. | the transitional period between puberty and adulthood in human development, extending mainly over the teen years and terminating legally when the age of majority is reached; youth. |
| 2. | the process or state of growing to maturity. |
| 3. | a period or stage of development, as of a society, preceding maturity. |
so yeah, i probably could have figured out that it meant 2 or 3 from the context, but i had never heard it like that before so i thought it was cool. So here I am enriching my knowledge and vocab, which is great and dandy, but.... that isnt' helping me pass this fucking final tomorrow. ugh.
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Edit 1:13am
still on chapter fucking 9... i hate this text book sooo much its not even FUNNY.
and i'm just NOT motivated... like i have too many thoughts that i'd rather think about (is that redundant? or weird?) I jsut want to talk to EVERYONE... oh wait, I am... but i cant be i need to focus. fuck.
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Edit 1:56am
you guessed it, still on chapter 9. this is just so boring, i cant deal with it. And its almost 2 and i know NOTHING. The thing is I obviously I love magazine, it's my major, there are very few jobs in mag i cant see myself doing, (which is why i picked mag as a major, its so broad.) like i can see myself writing, illustrating, graphic designing, running a mag, even copy editing. (yes i love grammar and making things sound good, and not to be immodest, but i'm good at it... and i do it anyway would be nice to get paid for it) but like... i dont care about the hitory of the visuals of a mag... actually that sounds interesting, maybe it would be if this text book idndt suck. like this chapter is called "the coming of age of magazine design" like that just makes you want to roll your eyes.
oooh yeah, the reason i came back to the blog in the first place was bc of New York magazine. It seems to have a lush and exciting history and it gets lots of praise and apparently its made all these breakthroughs... but i read a copy of it for the first time over spring break and like... its really not that great. maybe it was just that issue, but it doesnt hold a candle to time out new york!
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Edit 3:31am
4.5 hours till my test. shit.
On another note:
Chapter 9 √
so it feels good to check SOMETHING off though i must admit i feel kind of pathetic for ONLY getting that much done in these hours. ugh. and still so much more. Can't worry about. On to chapter 8 (yes, I'm working backwards, why, i don't know.)
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Edit 3:48am
DONE WITH CHAPTER 8!!
i guess chapter 9 was just freakishly long and dense
so yeah
Chapter 8 √
Now on to the chapter 5
omg i almost made a twitter but then thought better of it... glad i didn't cave.
You know what, i won't do chapter 5... she wasnt clear at all about it and what we had to know plust i'd rather actually learn this other stuff. so... moving right along.
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Edit 4:38am
Chapter 11 study questions completed and in the process of being printed.
but on a bad note less than 4 hours till this test.
crap i did NOT want to pull an all nighter.
And i'll probz have to tomorrow night too. dammit.
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Edit 4:51am
so 1. there are fucking birds chirping, which means its officially too late to be awake. dammit.
2. crap i had something really important i wanted to write and i completely forgot it. ugh. OH JK I REMEMBER!
so... I think that spell check is prejudice against people who are dyslexic. Okay, so I'm kidding obviously and like, I'm not dyslexic, i just think faster than I type and I'm also impatient, so sometimes my letters or words get jumbled but spell check never has the right suggestions for those when looking at the mistake it seems obvious. It's kind of annoying really. okay back to work ugh. I'm doing 9 and 10 together and I'm already lost damn....
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edit 5:48am
its getting light out. that is horrible. i just want to cry.
i am miserable.
i still dont know so much of this.
im going to fail.
and all this bullshit i went through to do well will have been in vain.
fuck everything.
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