blind horizons

Tumbles.

2011-01-19T17:48:00.000-08:00

Since tumblr doesnt have comments I'm going to direct them here. Comment on this post: http://www.tumblr.com/xts1auoc6v here.

I need

2011-01-03T09:22:00.001-08:00

to start doing good things for myself.Get. Back. To. The. Gym.I need to unplug, detox, let go, breathe. Ready? Set? Go!

blogggg

2010-06-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

I know I've been on that other blog site-y thing but for some reason i felt like posting on here today. Typical Mealz, can't just stick to one thing, one group, one whatever, just have to be all over the place. Whatever, it works for me.Anyway I just wanted to keep track of everything that's been happening this summer, because so much has been happening so quickly ("too much, too soon"??) and I

:-(

2010-01-16T18:40:00.000-08:00

gosh back in syracuse a mere few hours and i'm already bored. Ha. I miss my perfect city. oh well, on the bright side my room is enormous, with a queen sized bed, and just mine. yay.

Being a New Yorker means feeling accomplished

2010-01-14T22:36:00.001-08:00

Seriously, when I keep busy and run from place to place I actually feel very productive and its a good feeling. I love this city so much. I ride on the energy of it. It's the greatest rush anyone could ask for. And furthermore, it's home. So I had a good 21st birthday and a great break.I ended up seeing a total of 14 shows (which is where are my money went, apparently. That and voice lessons. But

wtf

2010-01-14T00:00:00.001-08:00

im 21.... wtf

eh... mind change

2010-01-12T20:13:00.000-08:00

so for start of semester "resolutions" I kind of want to add and switch.The hour of work idea was a good idea on principle but in actuality I'm not sure how it makes sense, just because what if I have more work... I don't know, sorry that wasn't coherent really. But basically - I'm nixing it and replacing it. Instead I'm going to say that I should read non-academic materials for AT LEAST 1/2 and

and more goodness

2010-01-10T20:22:00.000-08:00

Positive action from W,X, and Y (though I'm not supposed to care about W.) and as for Z? Z can go suck it! No clue what I'm talking about? good. But it's good stuff, for the most part, except for Z, which is busy sucking it. Had a good day today, went to Soho and saw emma, had lunch and went shopping with her, then headed to times square, walked around a little but it was freezing. Ran into Jenn

sorry for so many blogs in such a short period of time.

2010-01-09T23:20:00.000-08:00

So many highs and lows today. It could have been a great day, but it wasn't because of the lows.But that being said, I just got a decent amount of dialog scripted for my play. I mean, its pretty crappy but it's the roughest of the rough drafts so that's a start. Yay progress. I'm going to ignore the bad and the shitty and focus on what was good about today. Using my gift certificate to get some

Keep it Positive

2010-01-09T08:55:00.000-08:00

okay. Time to start staying positive. STOP THE BITCHING AND MOANING NOW.Okay, done. seven things I'm looking forward to:1. My 21st Birthday :-)2. Chad coming to visit3. Seeing Johnny play at the rockwood (and being legal for it!)4. Going to mostly sondheim5. Heading back to the cuse after being away for 8 months6. final (double) voice lesson before i head back7. having my own room in the cuse and

thats a lot of blogs

2010-01-08T22:36:00.000-08:00

This is my 120th blog post... I wonder how many of these are filled with stupid crap, and angry rants. I think its time to invite more happiness into my life. More peacefulness, more calm, more achievement. I don't know. I'm sick of complaining but its of a comfort zone for me. I've always done it. It's easy and convenient. I guess in some ways I'm a sub-conscious self masochist. I like to make

frustration

2010-01-05T08:38:00.000-08:00

The fact that I can't think of a story to tell tortures me. I have characters, themes, a voice, set ideas, hell I even have plot twists... I JUST NEED A FREAKING PLOT!!inspiration, where have you gone??

ha

2010-01-04T15:12:00.000-08:00

well that's one person who I will never, ever, let hurt me again. I may be down on myself sometimes but I KNOW i deserve better than that.okay done ranting. productivish day.

FLASHBACK

2010-01-03T21:03:00.001-08:00

haha i have not done stupid surveys in a REALLY long time, but i figured I filled this one out right before 2006 so its about this time of year and it'd be funny to take a look at what i said then and what i would say now. In 2005 did you... In 20091) Get drunk? yes definitely 2) Get high? drugs are bad drugs are bad3) Learn something new about your self? yes yes5) Leave the country? no yes8)

not a failure, just a glitch in the system.

2009-12-31T14:43:00.000-08:00

so... i kind of took a cab today because i was running really late, but then to make up for that I walked home from times square, which is about 4 miles. Bleh. Oh well, that just leads me to another resolution-y thing. DON'T BE LATE!! the thing is, I want more than a resolution, the reason resolutions always fail is because they're missing a plan. I haven't figured out what my plan is to not be

MORE more more

2009-12-30T20:52:00.000-08:00

Here are some of my RIGHT NOW RESOLUTIONS!!!1. NO MORE TAXIS. No. They are expensive and stupid. For the rest of break, I will only take a cab if it is absolutely vital to my safety or well being. Otherwise, you've got a Metrocard, Amelia, use it! Ooh, or Walk if its not negative 600 degrees. there's a novel idea!!2. No more coffee. No grande tripple expresso shot sugar-free-vanilla soy lattes.

resolute.

2009-12-30T07:51:00.000-08:00

I'm going to be honest, I've never been big on resolutions. I'm not sure why, I guess I just can never take them seriously, I try, but I never follow through. Plus I always feel like its so arbitrary, like what's the point of saying in November or December, "In 2010 I'm going to get into to shape and eat healthy" like... if you want to get into shape and eat healthy, why not start now?I don't

The Chroni-what-cles of Melia

2009-12-25T11:53:00.000-08:00

I'm going to copy Frankie and Chronicle my vacation:Films Seen:Funny People (on the plane)Nine (In theatres, with Stef and Andrew)Fight ClubBlowGood Will HuntingRequiem for a DreamHedwig and the Angry InchShawshank RedemptionA Clockwork OrangeOne Flew Over the Cuckoo's NestAvatarBroken Embraces Plays Seen:HAIR - 12/18HAIR - 12/19Race - 12/23HAIR - 12/24Memphis - 12/26Fela! - 12/26Next to Normal -

sleep

2009-12-24T15:43:00.000-08:00

I know a quieter New York. A New York where the only sound is the tap of your soles on the slushy winter pavement and the rustle of your double bagged over priced groceries against your thigh. I know a quieter New York where the engines and skidding tires and sirens and crowds are far out in the distance. I know a quieter New York where the "cheap colored lights" are dangled sporadically on the

blahg

2009-12-23T06:42:00.000-08:00

i used to love blogging, but now i honestly find it such a hassle and so... well, contrived. I don't know. I think I loved it back in the day on Xanga when EVERYONE had a xanga, and if you didn't have a xanga, you had a live journal.... and everyone READ everyone's xanga. REALLY read, commented, was interested, couldn't wait for their friends to write the next post, actively took silly quizzes

i need...

2009-12-20T04:41:00.000-08:00

to start writing a play. I'm taking playwriting next semester and I need to get started now, I don't want to come into that class empty handed and with nothing.So why am I drawing this blank? For someone who considers "passion" to be one of her greatest attributes and someone who constantly feels compelled to write, and unstoppable urge... why can I think of nothing? Themes and Concepts are sort

mraz-tastic

2009-12-14T12:27:00.000-08:00

I wish my blog was as cool as Jason Mraz's blog. Well, let's be honest here, I wish i was as cool as Jason Mraz. He always has something important to say. His mind just works in such an interesting, beautiful way, his observations just really make you think. I'm much too lazy to write anything cool ever. I like his grip on life. I like his talent. I can't wait to finally see him perform live in

...

2009-11-28T06:09:00.000-08:00

so much work, and in pain. no fun.That being said, here are some things that make me smile.Hot chocolate. Freshly fallen snow, in NYC.New York City. Hugs.Stuffed animals.Puppies. Friends.Ice skating.Smiles.Compassion.Caring.Understanding.Thoughtful advice.Connections.NOT the christmas songs that Starbucks is currently playing on repeat, it may be time to whip out the headphones soon.

thansgiving

2009-11-25T07:06:00.001-08:00

we don't have that here :-(

soaring, flying

2009-11-17T18:34:00.001-08:00

So i had a revelation on a swing today. I went for a run in Regents Park (shocking, I know!) and I came across a playground. And surprisingly enough this one didn't have a security guard in front of it requiring you to have a child with you if you're going inside.I love swings, so naturally I decided to go on one, I mean I was by myself so who's judging? It's not like there was anyone on them. I

me

2009-11-08T14:11:00.001-08:00

I've been thinking a lot about change, about self, about personality. In an imaginary dialogue (I have those a lot) with an old friend, I said to him, "you know, I've changed a lot since you last saw me, I'm not the same girl I was in 8th grade." But even though I've changed, I'm still "me." But who am I? and how exactly have I changed?Well for one thing I've become more confident, less sensitive

Livuhpool

2009-11-03T03:10:00.000-08:00

-wrote this on the bus back-Had a really awesome time, went to the local pub with Tina, Karina, Jocie, Fiona, and Becca. Watched a bit of Final Destination 2 but got creeped out and went to bed.The next day Tina took me around the Liverpool center. I bought an awesome shirt at Dorothy Perkins, some makeup, wings, and red haiirspray for my costume (dark angel) Then we went down to Matthew Street

alrighty then

2009-11-02T06:29:00.000-08:00

I've been working on a few blog posts (on paper) and i realized that I do not need to write about every single little detail about every single trip but an overview and highlights is probably less boredom inducing and more importantly (since this is my blog so i can be a little selfish) a hell of a lot less strenuous to write.That being said, The rest of Berlin, Paris, Nice, and Liverpool updates

oh man soooo much catching up to do....

2009-10-29T02:51:00.000-07:00

I guess we're still on Germany, huh? Okay... you know what? before it gets too far behind I'm just going to write in current stuff and when I get the chance I will fill the rest in. Sorry about that. Not that anyone reads this anyway though.Okay... Nice, since I just got back from there.Absolutely incredible!! So after being up until 3am to finish that hell hole known as midterm papers, I got to

so much

2009-10-21T08:33:00.000-07:00

sorry for lagging behind, ive got to finish the germany blog and write the paris one but in the meantime...Review of "Our Class" for DRA451 √Group Paper on subcultures in Notting Hill / Portobello Markets --> Written, just need to wait for Iva to submit her revisions so we can edit and work on our class presentation. Due Tomorrow.Description Piece on Sachsenhausen for WRT422 --> Need to edit. Due

Berlin, Deutschland - eine

2009-10-14T15:21:00.000-07:00

It's interesting being in a foreign country with a different language. German is really cool and kind of hilarious. Growing up in a global city I' so used to people walking around gushing in some unrecognizable jargon. It's weird to think that in Berlin, this is me. While everyone here knows a little bit of English, just enough to get by, they don't really understand the language and our

right here, right now. London.

2009-10-14T15:03:00.000-07:00

Yesterday (i wrote this over a week ago, but at the time i wrote "yesterday") for the very first time, I felt myself in London. There was nowhere else in the world I could possibly be except in this city. I know the exact moment it him me, it was subtle but recognizable none the less. It wasn't the bright red double decker busses or all the drivers on the "wrong" side of the car. It wasn't the

that being said...

2009-10-14T14:24:00.001-07:00

I love london, really it's great, I'm having a wonderful time here and feel totally at home. But that being said, I couldn't live here forever, I miss New York wayy too much. I miss the coffeeshop on the corner of 86th and 1st open all night long that fulfills my 3am cravings of mozzarella sticks and french fries. nothing is open that late here, well almost nothing. I miss the bright lights and

Hamstead Heath

2009-10-14T08:37:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I'm going to start little by little and a bit out of order but here goes...There is something so poetic about hamstead heath that really compels you to write. You just want the visions in your mind and the thoughts in your brain to articulate themselves into structures that do the beuaty justice. You want to reach out, let everyone around you know the connection that you have made with

get excited

2009-10-11T17:26:00.001-07:00

there will be lots of updating soon. brace yourselves. In the meantime, sweet dreams chicos.

never settle

2009-09-27T06:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I needed more than anything to clear my head, relax, escape the tangle of thoughts that were clogging my brain. The theatre. A brilliant solution. The theatre is a place I can go when I need to escape. Leave reality and venture into a world that is not my own. A place where I can fully focus on something else and leave everything I know behind. London is not like new york in that the

london

2009-09-24T04:24:00.000-07:00

so i have another blog with the roommates but for some reason I wanted to write on here. It's weird being here because even though its been about 3 weeks now, it hardly feels like I'm in another country, let alone another continent. I guess I was expecting to have more of a culture shock but really this city runs very much the same way as my own.That being said though, that's not neccesarily a

as if you needed more reasons to love jason mraz...

2009-06-23T00:39:00.000-07:00

This quote from his blog fits nicely with my latest blog, yes?"Today I invite you to give your time or attention to a person or a cause that would love to have you. (Grandma’s are a great start.)Get clear or complete with someone today. Who or what have you been avoiding that has been costing you power? Call or visit with that person and let them know what’s on your mind simply as an act of love.

2 steps forward

2009-06-20T21:44:00.000-07:00

So recently I've been having little spurts of motivation. Well, I'm not sure if it's really motivation, its more like, getting myself back on to the plateau when I find myself falling as apposed to climbing further up the mountain. But either way, I suppose it's a good thing. Better than falling off completely. It's just recently when I feel myself getting lazy or losing desire to continue with

I miss the mountains

2009-06-18T23:30:00.000-07:00

There was a time when I flew higher,Was a time the wild girl running free would be meNow I see her, feel the fireNow I know she needs me there to share I'm nowhereAll these blank and tranquil yearsSeems they've dried up all my tearsAnd while she runs free and fastSeems my wild days are pastBut I miss the mountainsI miss the dizzy heightsAll the manic magic daysAnd the dark depressing nightsI miss

art is

2009-06-16T14:43:00.001-07:00

my connection to reality

i know what i want... just not how to get it

2009-06-02T23:50:00.000-07:00

I want someone who I can call just to tell him that I miss him and not have to worry about being awkward, or sounding like I'm too clingy... or desperate... Just an innocent remark. I want someone who I can call and say I miss and who will appreciate the call and tell me he misses me too. I want someone who will call me just to tell me he misses me. I want someone to miss me. Some people... are

beauty

2009-05-22T19:14:00.000-07:00

looking out of my twenty-something-th floor window at the overwhelming flow of lights and sky scrapers, then standing on my terrace looking eastward at the river, the bridge, and more lights I re-fell in love with my beautiful city.

$$

2009-05-17T07:21:00.000-07:00

I have GOT to stop spending so much Money.Also I have GOT to get to Chicago. Which of course involves... (drum role please) spending more MONEY!And getting out of jury duty...Even though no one reads my blog anymore I'd still like to start posting videos again. This one was created by the wonderfully talented Nitya who I had the pleasure of meeting yesterday.Also here is some art that I have

fail.

2009-05-15T05:55:00.000-07:00

my whole being healthy thing totally just jumped out the window.I have GOT to get back on track.On the bright side i've got my first voice lesson today so that should be fun. too bad I feel like crap right now.

la la la

2009-05-12T08:39:00.000-07:00

so... I signed up for a bdc club card, bought a pair of ballet slippers, and am on my way to becoming a prima ballerina... well not quite but let's take this thing one step at a time.Also I TOTALLY forgot reading on my list. I have a hugeeee pile of books waiting to be read (because i tend to buy books compulsively) so I want to get those done.Here is the list of books, in no particular order

this summer, pre camp....

2009-05-10T17:57:00.000-07:00

i would like to:dancesingjamdrivemanagewatchearnrealistically?I will try my hardest to get to a few dance I made a schedule of all the ones I'd like to take at BDC and Serena which include an assortment of beginner ballet, jazz, theater, hip hop, african, and belly dancing. I'll have to experiment and see which teachers and types I like then i can continue with those.I will contact Sasha's voice

:-(

2009-05-06T14:31:00.001-07:00

overall, despite obnoxious people and anxiety... its been a good year. goodbye cuse, see ya in JANUARY

in an attempt to focus

2009-05-03T16:07:00.000-07:00

I put on the nutcracker, its baiscally the only music i've got without lyrics on itunes... thinking that it wouldn't istract me. But no, it did. I just want t sit and listen. I love the nutcracker. I should start making a things I love list again, I'm starting to need it. Let's do this not obvious things. Random happy good things. Okay1. The Nutcracker. 2. Thunder storms at camp, just lying

bs

2009-05-01T10:58:00.000-07:00

this is such bullshitI deserve better.but somehowi can't stop thinking about ithe is driving me mad. all i want to do is NOT care.fucking mixed signals. or maybe the signals are clear and I'm just denying them. either way.fuck him.figuratively.

sad song?

2009-04-30T10:45:00.000-07:00

I miss those crazy kids. I'm sad I won't be able to go to the mercury lounge. really like, if i was born one year earlier i could be there. but no. blah.

Ten.

2009-04-27T07:29:00.001-07:00

My friend made this a facebook note, I would have but I am paranoid and wouldn't want the people who its about to figure it out and I feel like they would so... That's what blogland is for.10 things I would like to tell 10 people1. Thank you so much for being there for me recently. I feel so lucky to have such an amazing friend like you who really gets me and doesn't judge me on the things that

blahz...

2009-04-27T06:54:00.000-07:00

holy bejesus. I'm like shaking.I didn't sleep.at all. Lame-o.I'm listening to "I'm Yours" it makes me happy and I never get sick of it. Also it some of the lines pertain SO much to my life right now... In a yearning way though. Like what he saying is articulating exactly what I want, or what I want to say. Okay so... Today 2:30pmfinish taking mag final (basically i wrote a freaking novel

overwhelmed much?

2009-04-26T19:18:00.000-07:00

Magazine final - Tomorrow 8:00amNeed to:Read Chapter 9Read Chapter 8Read Chapter 5Review class notesMemorize all of that shitFact Checking - Tomorrow 5:00pmNeed to:Highlight all the factsCheck themE-mail article back to editorsMonologue - Tomorrow 6:30pmNeed to:Memorize monologueMake it "me" or whatever the hell I'm supposed to with it.Math Test - Tuesday 9:30amNeed to:Go over notesGo over review

jews.

2009-04-23T10:03:00.000-07:00

this was a class assignment for newswriting. It was a bitch to cut it down to 300 words but I managed (well, almost, its 301.) “Ma'oz Tzur Yeshu'ati,” The familiar scene of a family singing these words around a menorah during the Syracuse Stage production of Anne Frank made me yearn for my family and feel connected to my roots. I never saw my religion as particularly unusual

more doodlies

2009-04-22T09:45:00.001-07:00

this is my favorite. I did a hair one, but I don't like it anymore, so maybe I'll redraw it when I have time.

i hope it works

2009-04-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

As Rent gets closer I'm getting more and more excited. Yet I'm worried. What if it doesn't do for me what I need it to. I've always said that Rent's been there for me when I needed it and blah blah blah, but really right now my brain is just one hot mess.I need something, I need comfort, hopefully this will be a comfort zone to turn to. I mean it's not like I don't have friends, i do, and I have

forget regret or life is yours to miss

2009-04-19T07:49:00.000-07:00

I've been feeling like utter crap, I'm sure the time of month has something to do with it too. Seriously its so bad, it makes me overly sensitive about things that shouldn't even phase me. But anyway... all I had to do was realize that I'm seeing Rent in 5 days and the biggest smile just took over my face.

i am...

2009-04-18T11:26:00.000-07:00

going to put 100 things away.it is currently 2:27pmReady, Set, go!2:59pm update -so i picked up a decent amount of stuff, cleaned under my bed, my room still looks like a bit of a disaster area... but okay 100 more items 3:00pm, ready, set, go!4:49pm Beer run > cleaing roomwoopsies.

...

2009-04-11T14:00:00.000-07:00

Melissa inspired me.It looks like there was a freaking clothes tornado in my room.I can't clear my mind until I clear my floor, because right now you can't see it.Is this a veiled form of procrastination on my term papers? Probably. But either way, it needs to get done. On another note, everything hurts. I don't know what's wrong with me, but really, everything hurts.

blah

2009-03-30T10:11:00.001-07:00

So I guess what it all comes down to is that life is about choices, and choices are hard to make. And sometimes we make the wrong choices. Sometimes those wrong choices are innocent ones. We didn't know, we couldn't have known, and therefore, we can't kick ourselves for them. hell... maybe it'll all work out, right? The only thing to do now is accept the choices we've made and move forward from

woah?

2009-03-22T23:45:00.000-07:00

Holy crap. somehow, someway... that worked.I posted that blog and just felt encouraged, empowered. Even though I didn't even thing about what I had written, maybe it was just wedged in the back of my head. But I just started writing and I wrote and I wrote (and I thank you dalton for teaching me how to bullshit)It's like a weight has been lifted. Damn, that feels good.

calm down, missy.

2009-03-22T22:56:00.000-07:00

Okay, Amelia, okay.think.Everything is art.EVERYTHING.You just need to color the canvas with words that aesthetically match together in a way that is understandable. They need to make sense. You can always go back and fix the edges.but now it needs to be onto the page.Art is made when there is a need to express it. you NEED to get this done.it must be completely.You must paint a picture. with

Day 6

2009-03-12T08:47:00.000-07:00

I got a gift certificate to Ohm Spa for Chanukah so i decided to use it yesterday. I got a massage and it was glorious, as massages often are. (not that I often get massages, but on the occasion that I do they are quite glorious.) Then I walked from there to the Sephora on 34th and used my gift certificate that my Aunt gave me for my birthday there and got new bronzer, powder, mascara, and

Day 5

2009-03-11T07:33:00.000-07:00

woke up kinda late, when on another cooking adventure. I made whole wheat pasta with spinach and roasted garlic and portobello mushrooms, mozerella, and a liberal amount marinara sauce. Becca came over and i fed her lol. Then Chris came in and we left epic videos on people's facebook walls. Good times, man, good times. Then we headed down to Hair lotto and penski met us there to help, which was

Day 4

2009-03-10T08:26:00.001-07:00

woke up and chilled around the house for a bit then was like... I NEED TO GET OUT!!but I didn't instead I made some caprese a la melia... it was great I like roasted garlic w/ pepper and chives (and a pinch of salt) and then put slices of tomato on the pan with slices of fresh mozzarella on top then when the the cheese began to melt a bit I put to garlic on top and put the whole shebang in the

day 3

2009-03-09T09:53:00.000-07:00

nothing.seriously. i did nothing all day. except the good thing i mentioned before.and i went to the grocery store. and had indian food for dinner. and it wasn't even good.and now i feel lethargic. this one is the best. ay hunter.

of course...

2009-03-08T17:44:00.001-07:00

and just as expected, she falls right back in. I feel so vulnerable, I can't stand it. I need to go make art. its the one thing i'm decent at.edit: omg i cant believe i just did that. relief.

day 2

2009-03-08T09:00:00.001-07:00

So yesterday once i was up and ready i went to go get brunch with ava. I wanted to walk... so I did. I walked 3+ miles but then was running late so I hopped in a cab and met her at the smith, which is a restaurant downtown. It was really cute and the food was good. Then we went to some frozen yogurt place (there are so many of them these days) called Sixteen Handles. I was stuffed so I didnt get

BREAK TIME

2009-03-07T07:19:00.001-08:00

this break i'm going to try to actually keep up to date here.so friday...Well Thursday night was technically vacation because I was done with classes so I went to see Mark's show "Little Person" which I really enjoyed a lot. I was nervous because I had hear about it being "interesting" and "different" and "weird" and sometimes those words can imply "pretentiously odd for the sake of being odd"

Greasy Pizza

2009-03-03T14:47:00.000-08:00

"You'd better know that in the end, its better to say too much than never say what you need to say again. Even if your hands are shaking and your faith is broken. Even as the eyes are closing, do it with a heart wide open. Say what you need to say"So I've decided that the first thing I'm doing when I get home (okay well not first, but one of the firsts) is buying lots and lots of healthy food.

finally

2009-03-02T14:30:00.001-08:00

so i had a revelation.the time has come.to move on.and i am ready now.i just hope i don't change my mind!!!things are happening, things are moving, i can feel it. I am filled with so much optimism today with no real reason for it. I love this though i want it to continue.This quote is so far off from describing my life, in fact, it's almost the complete opposite. However, I am for some reason

Lyrics

2009-02-28T06:21:00.001-08:00

There are so many lyrics that I love and i just so wish that they could pertain to my life, you know. Or sometimes they do pertain to my life, but I can't let anyone know that. And sometimes they don't pertain to my life but I like the quote but I don't want to use it because I think that people will think that it pertains to my life. Or sometimes its something that I want to pertain to my life

Fakeness

2009-02-27T06:23:00.001-08:00

I hate fake people.I HATE fake people.Like, I really fucking hate fake people.Just say. it. to. my. face. bitch.Really though, it's bitchier to be nice to someone's face and then nasty behind that person's back. For anyone who is reading this. I like honesty. I can handle the fucking truth and I can take a hint. So do yourself and me a favor and don't be a fucking asshole. Entiendas?Also, is it

tragedy

2009-02-18T17:36:00.000-08:00

Article in the Daily NewsArticle in the New York PostNBC article and Video * MOST RECENT * Its weird for something to hit so close to home yet be so distant at the same time. I didn't know him, but I know people who did. I knew who he was. It's shocking, frightening, heart wrenching. It's really an awful thing. Yet I feel like I should be more affected by it and feel awful that I'm not. Perhaps

perfect sense

2009-02-10T17:54:00.001-08:00

gosh you know those moments where everything just... falls into place. It all makes perfect sense now ;-)i feel smug.TOS and LMM two of my favoritist things:

time and place

2009-02-08T07:31:00.000-08:00

So I was talking to a friend las night, sort of depressed (beverage consumption being a factor), about the fact that I have never been in a serious relationship. To which he replied, "babe, you're looking in all the wrong places."me: i don't know if I'm really looking thoughhim: trust me you areme: well, where am I supposed to lookhim: maybe you're not supposed to be looking right now.So then I

recruitment?

2009-02-07T12:58:00.000-08:00

I don't get why sorority rush is called "recruitment." Just because like, who are they recruiting? These girls all already knew they wanted to be in a sororities some of them are even desperate to be in sororities, to be in particular sororities. If anything I think it should be called "decruitment" as in... Who can we eliminate? Who do we NOT want in our house? Who can we not accept? Or maybe

happiness

2009-02-05T11:25:00.001-08:00

i just wanted to say that i really love all my courses this semester and I am just generally feeling happy. At the moment, anyway.This video is like the encompassment of amazingness

creative writing

2009-01-31T05:47:00.000-08:00

I tend to dislike almost everything that I write. I think that I have finally discovered the reason for the constant scrapping of drafts, for the dozens of unfinished stories. I believe that there is a blurry line between fiction and reality. The creative fiction stories that I write are either about something I know nothing of (which often leads to me getting stuck and not knowing where to turn)

writing is subjective

2009-01-29T11:32:00.001-08:00

The blatant rejection of my writing would usually have significantly discouraged me from keeping my head up in the field. However, in my frustration, there is nothing that I feel more compelled to do right now than to just write.Was that sentence clear cut? Was it coherent? Do I care?I believe that writing is an art. It is something we create. It is something that the artist initiated for the

really, really, likes comments.

2009-01-28T20:09:00.000-08:00

Ugh. I hate obnoxious people. just throwing that out there. I should write better blogs but i don't really have the time right now.But i am in this video:

amelia likes comments... just saying.

2009-01-28T09:24:00.000-08:00

So, the question is... if I do not have my guitar up in Syracuse then why is there a pick lying on my bedside "table"??RANDOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and yes, i left the m out on purpose. Why? I do not know.)she is so fierce. best "leap of faith" ever if i do say so myself.(for those of you know don't know about the wonder that is antonique smith, you can see her kickass in NOTORIOUS as

woops

2009-01-25T21:48:00.001-08:00

oh man, MAJOR mishap... let's NOT do that again.let's also not double our weight again at 3am, k?i was bored and made this: http://www.scrapblog.com/0248D5B7-5242/60278211-660Band here is the video of the day

Does anyone still read this?

2009-01-22T21:31:00.000-08:00

1. I need more straight male friends2. I need more straight male potential more than friends3. Basically, I need more testosterone in my life. Sorry, was that awkward? 4. My first article for the D.O. (or school newspaper) is due on February 9th. I'm not gonna lie, I'm a little bit nervous. 5. I've decided to audition for WhAT again this semester. I miss having theatre in my life. Then again, i

preparing for national hourly comic day

2009-01-21T15:31:00.001-08:00

and a video for the road

2009-01-20T11:02:00.000-08:00

yay obamaboo other people.that is all. here's one for the road (ive decided to post some of my youtube faves on my entries)

2009-01-14T11:48:00.000-08:00

1. I dont get why, as a magazine major, i need to take this news writing class. I want to write for MAGAZINES, that means that I like my flowy, wordy, vocabulary infused essays. Why should I have to learn how to simplify and boringify my writing when after this class I have every intention on writing as I've been. It also would be nice if the profile thing we have to write for tomorrow was oh,

New Blog ON TIME

2009-01-08T22:52:00.001-08:00

so even though i'm behind on the others i figured i'd catch us all up in this direction.so...Thursday, January 8thwoke up super early this morning because matt had to move his car before 9. Said goodbye, met Becca for coffee and I felt bad bc i was running so late. Came back napped did a whole lot of nothing. Made some spanish notecards because i decided that if im going to take spanish 2 next

okay

2009-01-08T06:17:00.000-08:00

i need to catch up because i want to go back to writing random thoughts and crap so ill try to not get behind as well as fill in the holes... soo why dont we start with yesterday and then i'll go back into the previous entry to fill in more on the PR trip and man i havent even touched boston yet. not sure why i feel SO compelled to have a detailed report of everything single day but i dont know i

crap

2009-01-06T23:11:00.001-08:00

there is NO WAY I'm going to remember everything so I'm going to backtrack while things are still fresh in my mind, and add them in while i get a chance. Sunday January 4thSo we decided to sleep in late since it was supposed to rain, but alas it was gorgeous out. Oh well, there was no way we could have known. So Viviana, her family, Terrance, Leilani, and I all went to old san juan. It was a lot

left behind

2009-01-02T12:49:00.001-08:00

gah im so behind hopefully i can remember everything

sorry

2008-12-31T14:53:00.000-08:00

wow, i have NOT been keeping up here. I hope I even remember everything from the past week or whatever. I will try. December 25Went w/ mi madre to my grandparents house, we just hung out there for a while, my aunt, uncle, and cousin, and dog came over for a bit and we took pictures and it was merry. Then I went back into the city around 6. I wanted to see another show, so I figured I would go to

and even further ramblings

2008-12-27T21:48:00.000-08:00

I have been having a LOT of issues sleeping, like I haven't been able to fall asleep before 5am for the past 4 days or so. It sucks majorly. But alasDecember 24thDespite not sleeping much, I woke up early enough to make heights lotto. It was pouring rain but I got CC107, which is DEAD CENTER and I was so happy since I haven't won lotto, well ever actually, but I haven't sat lotto since the show

loves it.

2008-12-26T11:35:00.000-08:00

I got this from michelle's blog and it just made me LOL so hard. So I thought i would share it with anyone who actually reads this.Ladies and Gentlemen, prop 8, the musical."Prop 8 - The Musical" starring Jack Black, John C. Reilly, and many more... by Jack BlackIn addition I thought I'd share some puppy love with you all:

alright let's get caught up then, shall we?

2008-12-25T22:49:00.000-08:00

Monday December 22ndWoke up a bit later than i should have and was running a bit behind for my wisdom tooth checkup thingy. Well eventually we got there, everything was dandy, and left to go to the hair salon. I got a few more layers and then grabbed a bite with my mom and we headed to Bryant Park to check out the holiday shops. When we got there I honestly couldn't stop smiling. I'm am about to

and even further ramblings... surprise surprise

2008-12-23T13:10:00.000-08:00

Sunday December 21st.I did nothing. all. freaking. day. Seriously I just like slept and went online, it was positively dreadful. I can't think of many things that I like less than being bored. Well that's not true. I don't, by definition, like all things negative. We ordered Indian food which is always a good choice. I need to remember the name of that tofu dish I got because it is amazing.

more ramblings

2008-12-20T22:12:00.000-08:00

Friday december 19thwoke up, met up with amanda who had an interview at bloomingdales. then we went and ate at cpk. Apparently they spinach artichoke dip is now vegetarian, which is good to know, though it wasn't as good as I had remembered it to be. Oh well. And so many calories. Blah. They also list the calories on the menu. that's not fun either, but i guess in the end a good thing, right? I

flash back to the past

2008-12-18T22:24:00.000-08:00

2 years ago today (well yesterday) i got into college. crazy.Thursday, Decemeber 18thwent to visit my high school w/ ava and allison and saw ashley there as well. It was nice. I got to talk to a bunch of my old teachers which I always enjoy. A few of them weren't around but I saw the majority of the ones I wanted to. I miss my high school teachers a lot, they were they best. My history teacher

no time to search the world around, cause you know where I'll be found... when i come around

2008-12-17T08:23:00.001-08:00

10. since i already did acoustic guitar i won't count that as my number 10, instead I'll say seeing Mr. Gallagher perform live (and by Mr. Gallagher, I clearly mean Johnny Gallagher, and not m middle school teacher, though he is a performance artist as well)11. good comedy that isn't forced12. cooking13. long walks by myself around the city14. tomato soup15. sleepovers with stefMonday December